bored.

well I got a job which means I am that much closer to moving to bowling green with my wonderful boyfriend dustin c deloach...It was our 3 yr anniversary amazing we have made it. I know alot of people mainly people who don't know us at all wonder about us here is the deal . Dustin did some fucked up shit to me (which know one knows about) and he broke up with me twice. I broke up with Dustin after a feud with him and this girl and I went out with another guy who I thought would fix everything and give me a better out look on everything.. all it did was make dustin realize he had been a asshole and we both didn't really know how much we needed each other till then. And it made me realize that nobody is what they seem and every guy is douche bags. I feel sorry for alot of them.

 Point is Dustin and I are amazing now we fight sure and hurt is still there but it goes away every day me and him are together so everything is fine. I have never met a better person for me. We get all of our dorky shit and we would do anything for each other. I just think he is amazing. I love his family and his friends are all my friends. It's great.

 we can't wait to move in with each other . I can't wait to get away from my parents its amazing that a divorce can go on this long. It's amazing how two people can bring there child down so much as they have me. I can't believe for 5 yrs I have held back my life to take care of my mom and dad so they wouldnt be alone and what have I done I am 23 yeas old and I have nothing to show for my life. Makes me ashamed to be around dustin's family makes me feel like I am not good enough (which I am not) I always think deloach is going to break up with me for some awesome college chick. But I think everyone is better than me . Funny part DeLoach thinks the same way about me. I guess that means we are perfect. But I got a job here in Louisville (which I thought would be so amazing to live at) No doubt it is everything is minutes away and I even live where I have always wanted the highlands but its nothing without someone to share it with. So I move here to get a job which is going to pay me 8.00 a hour to cashier and what do I get in return 1,000 to move into a nice place with DeLoach and we won't have to put up with bullshit anymore. It's going to be so nice ..it's the only thing I will think of when working 8 hour days.

You have no idea how much this is going to help me break away from my parents and not take care of them anymore no worry every day who is going to be yelling at whom. Not have to worry whos moods I will have to tip toe around. I won't be held back anymore. I can't wait. I will be able to breath. No stress but if me and dustin are going to have our rent due. YAY! what an amazing life it will be. I love it.

so june get here quick so I can get the fuck out of this fucking place. Don't get me wrong I love Louisville I just don't like it with my parents. If only they can grow the fuck up. and let me go.

ugh life....