and it starts all over again

I think its awesome that somebody doesn't think I am capable of being nice.
Or the fact I get accused of doing something stupid that I didn't do yet I guess I did because I am a hateful bitch,
I also hate it that somebody thinks I'm fucking stupid.
God this shit is so stupid I mean I can't be to nice or I'm being to clinging so I have to act like I don't give a shit and pretend.
fucking lame when your in a relationship you should wanna be around that person you should want to want everyone to know that
person is yours. WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH ME!. OK so I'm not some fucking college awesome person. I don't have a awesome job. I'm not miss money bags who gets everything fucking handed to her. But I feel and I love and I have dreams and I am not trash. I'm a good person who cares.

I just hate being the 2nd best all the fucking time. I try so hard to be what everyone wants me to be. But it doesn't fucking matter your the fucking low life and like I have said a 1000 times before there is always someone better than me. It's always me hiding my feelings and trying to keep someone and I look like a fucking idiot and its a big joke to fucking everyone eles. I look like a idiot.


It's always me I am always the problem and this is my life.
SORRY FOR FUCKING CARING SORRY FOR NOT WANTING TO LOOK LIKE A FUCKING IDIOT SORRY FOR TELLING THE TRUTH AND YOU NOT BELIEVING ME! SORRY FOR FUCKING WANTING TO BE SOMETHING YOU WANNA BE WITH. SORRY FOR WANTING ALL THE STUPID CUTE SHIT COUPLES DO. I'M SORRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY FOR BEING A FUCKING PIECE OF FUCKING DIRT IN YOUR LIFE. I'M SORRY FOR MAKING YOU HATE YOUR LIFE AND EVERYTHING I HAVE TO DO WITH IT


IM FUCKING SORRY! LETS END THIS STUPID FUCKING SHIT AND GET DOWN TO A REAL RELATIONSHIP WITH HONESTY AND CARING AND NOT YELLING. BECAUSE I LOVE YOU STUPID AND I THINK YOU LOVE ME. SO FUCK EVERYTHING ELES. NOTHING ELES SHOULD MATTER BUT THAT PERSON AND MAKING YOUR LIFE EASIER FOR EACH OTHER. YOUR THAT FOR ME AND NOW LET ME BE THAT FOR YOU.

I KNOW I'M NOT SOME BEAUTIFUL FUCKING FASHIONABLE SUPER SMART PERSON. I KNOW I COULD NEVER AFFORD TO DO AWESOME THINGS BUT I LOVE YOU AND NO PERSON COULD GIVE HALF A SHIT ABOUT THINGS I DO FOR YOU. FUCKING HIGHSCHOOL BULLSHIT... LET ME BE THAT PERSON WHO MAKES YOUR LIFE A LITTLE BETTER.